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2月8日 读明朝那些事儿有感朱元璋先生出身一穷二白,当上皇帝之前一辈子就是干革命的。革命革命,不革你的命就革
我的命。元朝可是很皇很暴力的,再加上身旁又总是比自己强大同样热爱革命的主,这 种暴力环境下能熬到最后的人,根本就没有生活,即使不是小心翼翼,也必得惮精竭力 以暴制暴。 这能跟人家宋太祖比吗?人家大将军舒舒服服威风凛凛的作着,一转眼黄袍加身当皇上 了。相比之下,朱老前辈缓称王缓了那么多年,若是偏安一隅也便罢了,可是偏偏在南 京,上下左右到处招呼,人家上游到江边撒泡尿这边都得性命相搏般的盯着。就算朱老
先生英雄盖世,不紧张不焦虑不抑郁不气馁,见到敌人就兴奋, 可这么些年下来,光
肾上腺就得大几圈吧。这都是给将来朱老多疑,易怒,近乎变态的崇尚暴力刑罚埋下的
注脚。
也许有朋友不以为然,哪次改朝换代不是打打杀杀?多少皇帝马背上一仰脖挺出来的, 也没见几个搞出明初那么多血雨腥风的(当然啦,汉族政权内部比较,不包括满蒙)。 当开国皇上的确大多打打杀杀历经战阵,但和朱老区别有三: 其一,这些人的势力有一 定正统法理基础,将军也好,族长也罢,像朱老这样纯粹贫农出身的,少; 其二,有 一定根基的人,小时候自然有人照顾,即使是刘邦那样的流氓也照样有过优哉游哉的快 活日子。老朱呢?生活里面除了阴影还是阴影。就个人来讲,目睹父母活活饿死而孤独 求活,这比什么都能激发人的原始生存本能,学名:兽性,基本要义就是为了生存资源 (食物、安全)不惜任何代价。就社会来讲,蒙古人也没什么人性概念,群狼横行的时 代,不阴险狡诈心狠手辣的小兽是没资格存在的。所以当开国天子,本来就是很暴力的 事情,而朱老干的尤为惊心动魄。其三,老朱的革命道路,从一开始就是一条无法回头 没有出路不成功便成仁的戏码。被人密告造反,不造也得造了;起了事,想当山大王, 无奈周围山头上全都有蹲点的,事闹大了,政治性民族性纠缠交织,绑架着也得和元朝 决一死战。。。小和尚一路都是这样,每每有所起色,抬头却是更加危险的山峰。挑战 ,有时确实是生活的忘忧草,可是到了黄袍加身之后,才发现,自己的生活早已被暴力 的挑战搞得七零八落。 这样环境培养出来的皇帝,是以暴力打破一切制约闯荡出来的皇帝,而一个没有丝毫制 约的暴力,自然是不会赶走蒙古人便停手的,于是株连十族当庭杖毙之类的创意就频频 博得圣心了。本来呢,对于这些胜利者,除了硬约束,还有一个软约束:环境变好了, 该享受和平年代了。后宫佳丽三千,就是把皇帝拴在宫里的一剂良药,性子慢慢磨吧, 早晚有锐气丧失的一天(周星驰找的除外) 。可惜,人家朱老别的不说,就是对马皇后一片深深的敬意,注 意是敬意。这位朱老青春期是饿着肚子在庙里过的,比起大半生颠颠簸簸的暴力生涯, 以及以父母惨死作结的童年,那段封闭的生活其实是朱老唯一可以自视为平静的年代, 而且那个年代的结束是他革命当皇帝的起点,也算阳光型结尾了。于是呢,如果我们假 设朱老还是一个正常人类,还曾经抑制暴力倾向,那么马皇后和庙里的封闭便成了仅有 的可能有效的剑鞘。 遗憾的是,马皇后先于老朱而去。结果呢,剩下老朱一人,狂则暴怒,抑则自闭。这种 心境下,重用太监密探简直是天上掉下来的两全其美之法。这些去势的男人,不论走的 多远,离开皇帝足下就什么也不是。他们是皇宫封闭的产物,也是皇宫封闭的象征,更 是皇宫封闭的保障。让这些人掌握自己授予的暴力,既可发泄暴怒,亦可追求自闭,既 是自己的壳,又是自己的剑,岂止一个妙字可言。 总而言之,明朝的诞生是在那个汉人走投无路,被迫以暴制暴,以野蛮对野蛮的时代背 景下,其建立的政治根基也在于其暴力成果。于是,朱老,这位血与火洗礼出来的暴力 社团老大,在反社会成功并建立新社会之后,很自然的按照自己熟悉并习惯的模式,建 立了一套壁垒森严刑罚严峻的黑社会制度体系。而且,由于他个人经历的局限性,即使
当了皇帝,也不会懂得享受和欣赏人生,于是只能心无旁骛,近乎狂热的去对那个黑社
会架子东天西补。再加上处于暴力魔性与自闭枯性的心境夹缝中间,便自然而然的构造
出明朝这个黑社会最具特色的纹身:太监暴力。 唉,其实这个别无选择不入皇宫便要死的小和尚内心应该是潜在的大大认同那些太监同 仁的。毕竟大家都是离开皇宫便不知所向,留在皇宫却找不到生活的人啊。 7月14日 回国记事1回家真好啊。
在家呆了一个月,除去4天在北京,6天在幼儿园做实验,着实休息了一番,把春天失去的体重夺了回来。
家长里短的事情记在心里了,在这里记录的是一些并不值得存到个人记忆中,但也许将来会值得翻出来的东西。
既然主要是07年6月份,暂且叫做“丁亥端午前后”系列好了。
1)5月30日,印花税背信上调,股市大跌。
本来这次回国就怀着对国内股市的浓厚兴趣,天津家里的亲戚朋友,28,29两天在北京见到的同学朋友,凡是有收入的,10有5,6在股票市场有投入,这5,6当中又有2,3是半年之内杀入场中的。更为可怕的是,不论有没有投入,凡是和我聊到股票的朋友,懂得啥叫股票的会跟我喜气洋洋的讲自己的收益同时忧心忡忡地提2008;不懂啥叫股票的也会跟我喜气洋洋的讲“翻番”同时愤愤不平的提“2008”。
我不懂股票,也不确定2008年中国经济会怎样,但遗憾的是既然很多场内的人都对2008有莫名的关注,那这个时间便不可避免的成为人们意识中的关键穴位。We should fear nothing but fear itself. Yeah, Well, sometimes, fear itself is more than enough to fear. 5月30日的绿色风暴是预示?是演戏?或者只是股海中被一颗小石子激起的涟漪?从现在到奥运400多天时间里,中国股市是否会发生什么值得历史记载的事情呢?呵呵,不知道,在那之前,也就只能悲叹自己不会冲浪,错失投资良机罢了。魄力上讲,还不如那些只知道股票名称,连公司干什么都不知道的朋友们呢。
5月30日的风暴本身其实也是极富中国特色而值得关注的。有个地方,你可以不看最权威的新闻联播,但你不能不听小道消息。事实与谣传的距离,往往就差那么几个行政级别而已。印花税在辟谣之后猛然上调,让人不得不想到“忽悠”这样的词汇。其实也难怪,卖拐这种事情在春晚上连着演了三年,可见欺诈背信这种事情还是有着群众喜闻乐见的基础的。相信这是有关方面在创建有中国特色股票市场的伟大征途中,又一次从河里摸到一块强有力的石头。其实股票市场嘛,跌跌涨涨也是平常事,可这次绝对有人经受额外的心理冲击。你看,既然事先很久就有传闻且精确应验,这内幕消息外泄也就成了板上钉钉的事情,恐怕肯定有人从容不迫,稳坐钓鱼台。信息,就是金钱。当然也有升斗小民压根不懂啥叫印花税,瞪着绿色屏幕心疼几天,只要随后再升也便了事。无知者无畏。最痛苦的恐怕是那些提前听说传闻,充分了解这传闻代表的含义,可惜不幸也由此关注了对传闻的辟谣,待得风暴一起,晴天霹雳之时,只能痛呼“政府公信力”这样可笑的乱码。有知识的人总是这样不幸的处于有产与无产的夹缝当中。
5月5日 纪念北大校庆--窝囊的无为竟然是五四了,若不是被提醒,也就忘记北大校庆这回事了。其实反正也不是什么重要的年头,于是上网翻出李敖到北大的演讲看了,以示纪念。唉,偏偏在毕业后他来了。呵呵,其实不毕业也轮不到我进去听。
这个老头子真的是挺能闹得,抛开观点学问不谈的话,其实算是陈阿扁的同路老前辈了,都是媒体政治时代的漂者。
几十分钟的演讲,除了吹牛,基本观点就是和平演变,抱住宪法,精神自由,北大窝囊。
不厚道的说,就好像是一个老油条教一众小油条如何精明自信有道理的做自由的小油条。当然啦,老先生一片苦心还是很让人感动的。
我最喜欢的话是问答阶段,经济中心那位大姐问老先生什么时候再来,老先生反问道:“我来干嘛?等***请我当校长我再来。”
北大若是李敖当校长会怎样?不知道。但至少那时的北大作为一个机构也许能拥有自己的精神吧。
也许在这以纪念北大校庆为题的文章里说这个,有点“打着红旗反红旗”,不过既然纪念的100多年前北大的诞生,那和现在的北大又有什么关系呢?
又要不厚道的说了,我们的北大,现在只是个自然聚合体而已。全国一部分顶尖的学生,全国一小部分顶尖的学者,一些钱,楼,塔,湖(差点就开放给海淀了),再加上曾经的名声与精神,搞出来一个概念股:“全球顶尖大学(争创中。。。)”
任何一个学校,都有教书育人的本分。一个学生,从进北大到出北大,如果没有任何积极的变化,只是老了四年,那么只能说学校是在图财害命。即使有积极的变化,里面有多少成分是学生自己天赋/努力带来的?多少成分是同学团体相互影响造成的?把这些除去,学校作为一个机构一个实体,为学生做了什么?不要说我建了食堂喂了你们四年,那是把大学降格为和尚手里化缘的钵;也不要说我建了宿舍楼为你们遮风避雨,集中营里面还有房子呢;更不要说宽敞明亮的教室开阔平整的操场,那话是个小学就可以吹。作为大学,唯一可以称道的,是课程对学生人生发展的影响。通选课改革算是得分啦,至少让大家选择多一些,自己系里课烂的话,还有些别的希望。可惜除此以外,学校对于教学质量教学理念方面,基本没有什么观点了,呵呵,只有一条,有反对***言论的不能上讲台。
在教育方面的无为,若是有心为之,也许也可以算作一种立场,可若是迷惑与无奈的妥协,那就真的很窝囊了。
北大作为一个大学,种种机缘,在20世纪中国史上博得一些资本,“兼容并包,思想自由”是这资产的品牌,可惜也不幸成为了包袱。曾经的旗帜不敢打,又没魄力彻底抛弃再开新篇,搞到现在,连个正经的校训都不确定。
现在国人心目中的北大招牌,其实更多是“北大清华”或“清华北大”,呵呵,这名字其实改称“牛B大学”也没多大影响。
也许多年以后的北大校庆会受到全球瞩目,但即使是那个时候,北大能否自信的称为大学,还是要看我们的学术与教育精神能否复兴。希望到那个时候,我们的校长,能够自信的高速我们,北京大学对北大人的气质有什么样的影响。
3月13日 Renewed passion for booksIt's been quite a long time since I tend to give up paper books as my source of income information. As I recall it, the major reason was the increasing challenge from the internet that forced the books withdrew. It was the sophomore year when YTHT came into my life as a major platform that contained all kinds of staff. I could get in there and spend all day on it to get entertainment or enlightenment. It's such a wonderful place to have. I even developed a biased dislike towards WeiMing because of the love with YTHT. Unfortunately, sweet times never last. The shut down of YTHT is so typical a thing that creates sadness back home.
to be continued... 3月8日 A Talk about Human-Robot InteractionI went to a talk this afternoon. The presenter is the president of Koei Univerisity in Japan. His lab has been doing research on Hman-Robot interaction for 15 years. The theme is to find out what kind of behavior of robot can encourage the interaction/communication between human and robots. For example, one experiment tested the effect of robots' eye contact with human beings, which discovered that eye contact does encourage the interaction. To some extent, all of those simple experiments are talking about how to make the robots more human-like, with gestures, with usage of language, etc. Frankly I'm a little skeptical about this approach. I think they are presumably leaning over to the humanoid side of "Robot" instead of "automatic machine with intellegence". I really don't think it's a must to design a robot based on the prototype of human beings, except for emotional/social reasons (e.g. a nurse robot). Despite of such difference in perspective, I think they were doing wonderfully great work, using simple (not perfect though) experiments, building up a framework piece by piece. Years later, if we do see humanoid robots like those in Sci Fi movies, they should be remembered (not likely though) as the pineer founders.
It's even more important to notice that these Japanese scientists are approaching engineer problems in a very scientific fashion, with highly systematic exploration and solid testing. They are looking into generalizable mechanisms of how to make things in a way they wanted. Compared to bold moves of trial and "交学费", this may seem slow? dull? nerd? Yeah, but it's a good way. 3月2日 爱上talk showThe first time I actually saw a talk show was during a party at a friends house. It wasn't a party really, more like some officemates hanging out together, otherwise why would we watch a talk show then? It was the "Late show" by Letterman. I didn't like the monologue jokes at all at that time, cause I can hardly understand anything, only occasionally "infected" by the others' laugh. Then it caught my attention in the guest session, when the ex vice president Gore came up to talk about his movie. it's interesting to look how he dodge the critique questions and advertise for his movie.
Then a friend asked, "Do you have talk shows in China"?
I said, "Yes, sort of. But they don't have political leaders coming up on the show."
Then another pursued, "Do the political guys come up on TV at all?"
I said, "Of course, except that they don't come up at Late show at this time of a day."
Then a joke came up and stoped the communication.
At that time, I realized that I was wrong. Gore is no longer a political leader anymore. He's only an plolitical activist at best. The political leaders in American will be unlikely to come up on TV at 1:00 am dodging ireverent questions, as the same as their Chinese peers. The real difference is that, we don't have political activists on TV in China who is not in power but with a strong political stand. In America, they can at least come up on TV at late night.
Later on, I gradually realized how influencial the talk shows are in America. For a lot of people, it's even a preferred source for news, which is totally against my first impression of it. As I started to pay attention to these talk shows, I got to like the hosts and those monologue jokes (Finally!) Part of the reason is that I gradually caught up with the news (more like gossips, to be fair) in America, like the hunting Dick Cheney, and the newly bold super star. That helps a lot to get the jokes. I have to say, it's just hilarious.
But I still don't like Letterman much, probably because he's too old and mostly because he has the annoying habbit of extending his tongue out. What's that for?
Now I really like the tonight show of Jay Leno. He often has more political jokes at the beginning and he looks funny. But his guests are often not interesting to me.
Any way, it's amazing to just laugh out.
If you have to have a reason other than that, go watch "Man of the year".
I rented it from Blockbuster and watched four times. It's just wonderful.
Irreverence is the champion of liberty, if not its only defender.--- Mark Twain (is this fake? who cares. it sounds good.)
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